The best thing that ever happened to me, but in the moment I was panicking things were falling apart left and right I couldn’t keep it together. I was miserable, addicted, my relationships were a mess, deeply in debt, beyond emotionally overwhelmed, everyday unfulfilled, uninspired, my physical health was blehhhhhhh, it was NOT CUTE, things were not flowing. ​
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Everyday seemed like a crisis and I was crumbling beneath the weight of it and the only coping mechanisms I had were drugs and alcohol and boys that were oh-so-bad for me.​
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When every part of my life went up in flames, on a whim, I gave away everything I had and took a solo cross country road trip where I got robbed by a robot in Vegas (or got drunk and left my wallet at a slot machine who can remember?), experienced sleep paralysis and terrifying lucid dreams while I camped alone in the desert, got stranded on the side of a dark road in the middle of the night when my engine overheated, and then slipped and slid between semi trucks traveling on winding mountain roads in a white-out blizzard. I very deeply felt the forces of nature, my own nature, during that road trip. Eventually with huge efforts I landed back at good ‘ol mom and dad’s in Nebraska. 

 

From that point, I picked up my shovel and dug myself deeper really trying to make a home in my rock bottom. I knew I was miserable, I knew I had addictions, I knew my mental and emotional state was a wreck, but I had NO CLUE HOW TO FIX IT.
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So I dabbled. I dabbled in everything I possibly could, I saw traditional psychologists, I did acupuncture, massage, reiki, yoga, I saw psychics and mediums, I did sacred ceremonies and learned tarot, I had a hundred crystals, went to al anon.  I learned everything I could about psychology and codependent relationships, addiction, alternative healing, shamans, spirituality, breath work, chakras, manifestation, meditation. And little by little I started to address my issues and heal my life.
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But I was still stuck in a dark cloud of emotion. I still had all the habits I couldn’t figure out how to break free from. I read all the books and understood logically all the concepts but it wasn’t changing my life. ​
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I had a cool crystal collection but I still felt hopeless. 
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That’s when I found hypnosis, I approached it by wanting to learn how to do it so I could help other people. I took the course to become a certified hypnotherapist through the International Association of Counselors and Therapists.
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Through my desire to help others I found all the things I was looking for for myself. I found access to my subconscious mind and the root cause for my addictions. I found emotional release from my past trauma. I found a deeper understanding and awareness of who I was, where I came from, and why I am the way that I am. I found my true calling to help others. I found limitless inspiration. I found a deep, profound, and unending love for myself. ​
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I am now able to build meaningful and emotional connections with other people, something I was terrified and incapable of before hypnotherapy.
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Hypnotherapy gave me the tools to permanently change my mind and ultimately change my behaviors so I could change my life. ​
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Through accessing my subconscious mind I was able to access the neural pathways in my brain that I was addicted to, not by conscious choice but because that was all I knew. ​
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Through subconscious reprogramming of emotional patterns I created a new way to think and new neural pathways were formed so now I have the ability to consciously choose everyday new thoughts for myself. Thoughts that are uplifting and joyful, thoughts that inspire me, thoughts that give me new actions!
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I still struggle, but I see every struggle as a gift, I am confident in my skills to navigate my emotional tides, I see the perfection in un-perfect-ness. I have a vast and deep acceptance of myself and all that I am experiencing most days. Some days I am triggered and I spiral. Some days I have a glass of wine and yell at my loved ones. Sometimes I scroll instagram until I am completely numb all over. But it don't crumble because of it. I have the tools to get myself back on track right away. I don't spend days months or years on the low end of life. I see the spiral and can clean it up immediately or at least by the end of the day :) Life if good. I am so in love with my life. ​

 

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